The one where Emily feels sorry for herself

Life has been more than a little crazy the last few months, and I won’t lie to you, in many ways I am really looking forward to being done with school in December. I’m excited to be out of school for the first time in my life, and I’m excited to get an actual job.

But sometimes I worry that all this was a very expensive mistake.

Don’t get me wrong, I love library science and this year has given me so many great experiences that I would never call a mistake. But there aren’t a lot of jobs out there right now. Library school was supposed to help me get experience so I could get a job, but so far the only experience I’ve gotten has been classes and volunteer experience. When I applied to library school last year they told me that of course there would be plenty of graduate assistantships available. Well… we all know how this story goes. No graduate assistantship, no real library experience, and I’m back living in my parents’ basement.

I went to Illinois because it was supposed to be the “best” library school in the country, and as much as I would like to believe that, after this long in the program I really can’t. I’ve had professors who have texted in class during student presentations and online professors who have never even taken an online class, let alone taught ANY class, among other things. Graduate school has not been at all what I expected and I’m not sure if it really has prepared me to be a good librarian. I feel like there are huge gaps in my knowledge.

And yes, a lot of my dissatisfaction may be because I haven’t taken advantage of as many opportunities as I should have. By doing the program in a year and doing half of it through LEEP I’m sure I’m missing out on a lot of great things Illinois has to offer. However, I still can’t help but feel a little betrayed by GSLIS, ALA, and myself.

I have had a lot of great experiences through GSLIS that I don’t think I would have gotten anywhere else. All of my Special Collections classes have been amazing, and if even just for that I cannot regret my decision to do get my MLIS at the University of Illinois. I’ve met a lot of great people and I feel like my (almost) a year of library school has helped me to become a better person and help me become the sort of adult that I want to be. With any luck I’ll soon be blogging about my awesome library job, but I think until that awesome library job comes up I’m going to worry, and there will be days like today where I feel sorry for myself.

Sorry for the depressing post, folks. I promise that soon I’ll have some much less depressing posts about books, movies, pictures of my tunnel book, and food.



Tunnel Books

I’m kind of falling in love with the tunnel book. The one above is the prototype I made for class. Of all the book structures we’ve made so far, this one is by far my favorite. I love the idea of a book being more than just the covers, text block, etc… Bookbinding has taught me that books can be so much more than that! They can be all different shapes and sizes, and they can have all kinds of movable parts…

Anyway, tunnel books! What is a tunnel book? It’s basically exactly what it sounds like: a book with a tunnel in it. They consist of a series of pages with smaller and smaller sections cut out. This creates something of a 3D look. They’re beautiful, charming creations and I can’t wait to make more of them!

And here is a link to some really interesting information about a tunnel book owned by the Smithsonian and how they repaired it:

LibriVox = Awesome

I love LibriVox. I first came across them a few weeks ago when I had to listen to a few fairy tales for class, and since then I have just gotten more and more excited about them. Tomorrow I’m setting off on my long, long drive to Illinois for class and I am so excited to have the LibriVox recordings of The Secret Garden and The Wind In the Willows to keep my company!

What LibriVox is: “LibriVox volunteers record chapters of books in the public domain and release the audio files back onto the net. Our goal is to make all public domain books available as free audio books.”

They have so many great audiobooks. Seriously, check them out! Even if you haven’t had a story read to you in years, I think you’ll find it to be a great experience. The link:

Songs I Can’t Stop Listening To

Just a quick update today! Here are some songs I can’t stop listening to. Enjoy!

Oh My God–Ida Maria

You probably recognize this one from the movie trailers for It’s Kind of a Funny Story staring Zach Galafawhatisname.


Strictly Game–Harlem Shakes

Steve got me hooked on these guys, and I’m currently very hooked on this song. Who isn’t “sick of dressing like a human when feeling like a leopard”?


Philadelphia– Standard Fare

So catchy. So good. It needs no description!


Engine– Jeff Mangum

I’ve probably posted this before. Everyone knows that my musical love affair with Neutral Milk Hotel is ongoing with no end in sight. I really adore the singing saw in this song. So beautiful.

Let Me In

Oh, dear readers, let me tell you about my disappointment! One of my most anticipated films of the fall was released last weekend, and it was not at all what I had hoped. Let Me In from director Matt Reeves (of Cloverfield fame) is the American version of the Swedish film Let the Right One In. Many of you know that Let the Right One In is one of my favorite movies of all time, and without a doubt my favorite vampire movie.

Before going on, I should let you know that the Swedish movie is based on the book Let the Right One In by John Ajvide Lindqvist. I loved the book, but not as much as the movie.

Let the Right One In is a beautiful, moving film about friendship and love.

The American version is a cheap horror flick that can’t make up it’s mind about what to say.

It wasn’t a bad movie. I guess it could have been a lot worse… but it lacked the poetry of the Swedish version. It missed the point. The beginning of the movie tried to separate itself from the Swedish version. It had a motif of eyes, and it started making some comments on religion… but then it drifted away from that and tried to just remake the Swedish version, and failed.

It wasn’t all bad. There was one really amazing scene where the “father” character is trying to get blood for the vampire. However, for the most part, it wasn’t a very good movie, and I can’t recommend it.

I don’t understand this whole remaking foreign films for American audiences thing. Do they ever turn out well? If you know of one that worked please let me know!